Fear, fear is something that we wall experience. Maybe it has to do with our friends or family, or maybe ourself and doing something. Now a days i find myself afraid for my friends, losing contact with them over the summer or just losing them as a whole. With some people it seems that just a second could erase them from my life and just leave memory's, other times they seem to be the most lively person i know telling jokes and messing with me. i lost contact with her sense this winter, and we just started talking again. she told me something that really scared me, and now i think about her what i feel is 100 times a day.
Its 1 now... i should be off to bed
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Bravery
Today my out look on being brave completely changed. I always thought it was having the balls to do something dangerous or crazy, i always thought myself as being brave for even trying to do park snowboarding, trying to spin or even to hit the kickers and booters.
It changed because one of my friends, i think of her as a sister to me, told her Mom something that i cant even imagine how hard it was for her. I realized Bravery isn't doing something crazy that might end up hurting yourself, its being able to do something that can change your life and holding your head up while doing it.
Some day i wish i could be as brave as she was today even if it was just for a second.
~TWM~
It changed because one of my friends, i think of her as a sister to me, told her Mom something that i cant even imagine how hard it was for her. I realized Bravery isn't doing something crazy that might end up hurting yourself, its being able to do something that can change your life and holding your head up while doing it.
Some day i wish i could be as brave as she was today even if it was just for a second.
~TWM~
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Parents
Yesterday there was this fair in my town, but it was expected to rain. I really didn't care. but than my dad was having a bad day because of work or something and said if it rained i would have to come home because i would hurt myself... okay i can kinda understand that. but if hes worried about me being in the rain wouldn't it just be better to go to someones house and get picked up but no, he wanted me to walk home. than it drizzled for maybe 5 minutes and he wouldn't let me go... of course i continued to bother him about it, finally he let me go. As i was getting into the car, it started to pour... i really could have cared less i could have just gone and hung out with people at someones house but i knew he might have a aneurysm or something.
This question often come up in my head. Why are parents so difficult about hanging out with friends. A while back i went to work and after we went to hang out, so i called my house and told my parents exactly what i was doing, where i was going, who i was with, and when i would be getting home. We went to my friends hockey game, than to a dinner for dinner. I got a phone call from my mom freaking out because she didn't know where i was, i had talk to her on the phone probably 4 hours before hand.
The past few days the question rolled around in my head. and the answer that always seemed to just be there was, "They gave birth to us, they want us to be safe and some day have our own kids. Often parents lose most of there social life dealing with all of our crap that we do, why do we love them? because we need to, most parents spend 18 years if not more raising us than probably helping us out of some bad situations, than paying 40 grand a year for college."
~TWM~
This question often come up in my head. Why are parents so difficult about hanging out with friends. A while back i went to work and after we went to hang out, so i called my house and told my parents exactly what i was doing, where i was going, who i was with, and when i would be getting home. We went to my friends hockey game, than to a dinner for dinner. I got a phone call from my mom freaking out because she didn't know where i was, i had talk to her on the phone probably 4 hours before hand.
The past few days the question rolled around in my head. and the answer that always seemed to just be there was, "They gave birth to us, they want us to be safe and some day have our own kids. Often parents lose most of there social life dealing with all of our crap that we do, why do we love them? because we need to, most parents spend 18 years if not more raising us than probably helping us out of some bad situations, than paying 40 grand a year for college."
~TWM~
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Love...
Today one of my best friends said she loved me. I love her back with all my heart. Later I went to go to bed, but i wasn't able to sleep. I laid there for a long time just thinking about what she said and what it really meant to me. I broke down crying, first time in a while that I'v really cried. All that was going through my head was "She loves me". I went on to think about the question "What is Love?" In my case I think that love is something amazing, it means that theres is someone out there who truly cares about you and how you are and feel.
I think everyone has had someone say I love you to them, if its there mother, father, sister or brother. But not many people have had someone say it that is there friend that truly says it from there bottom of there heart. When they do say it, you feel it, it hit's you like a ton of bricks.
I'v had a few people say I love you to me. But i can only think of two who i think really mean it. For those two people I would do anything for, for one of them i made a blog just because i couldn't keep it in how i felt and i just don't know how to express it to her through a text message or a phone call. The other... Well thats a whole other story, maybe next time. And this is to her
SilverMoon
I love you. I will do anything for you, anytime, anywhere. You are amazing, beautiful, funny you can always make me laugh, you make every day different and exciting. You may not realize how much you have changed my life, but you really have.
~TWM~
I think everyone has had someone say I love you to them, if its there mother, father, sister or brother. But not many people have had someone say it that is there friend that truly says it from there bottom of there heart. When they do say it, you feel it, it hit's you like a ton of bricks.
I'v had a few people say I love you to me. But i can only think of two who i think really mean it. For those two people I would do anything for, for one of them i made a blog just because i couldn't keep it in how i felt and i just don't know how to express it to her through a text message or a phone call. The other... Well thats a whole other story, maybe next time. And this is to her
SilverMoon
I love you. I will do anything for you, anytime, anywhere. You are amazing, beautiful, funny you can always make me laugh, you make every day different and exciting. You may not realize how much you have changed my life, but you really have.
~TWM~
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